So here it is, almost 3 months since I typed..again.  I hope everyone is doing well. :)

First things first, the hysterectomy is over...I am healed (finally) and can honestly say I am uterusless :P.  I just tell everyone it is in uterus heaven lol.  So in other words, I am totally ok with it.  I was pretty depressed for the first month or so after, but Ken put up with it all..so he deserves a medal lol.

As for the whole marriage thing, other then my name, nothing has changed..honestly I thought it would have, but it hasn't.  We work through things together, and he is slowly getting through to me that I do not have to worry about his kids 24/7 they are all old enough to take care of themselves now.  I still worry, but I try not to let them bring me down.  I am slowly getting rid of the downers in my life...whether it be friends, family or anything else bring negatively into my life, i am trying to live life for me now..its weird! LOL

A definite upper...I am working again :)  I love it.  I work for HP, I am a Support Professional..I get to help ppl troubleshoot their computers...what I do at home, but now I get paid for it lol!  Pretty good too for what I do.  I am just entering into my 3rd week of training..so I will keep ppl posted I hope lol.  Since I can access the web at my job :)

Other then that, i am an old married woman with no spare time.

I hope everyone is doing great..email me or something ppl, I miss you all :(

I honestly never thought in a million years I would get married, but here I am, almost a month later still waiting to wake up from my dream.  I don't think I have ever been this happy in my life.  Of course, like any couple we still have our little spats, but making up is always fun hehe.

I am still having issues with the girls though.  The one still refuses to accept me, another one isn't allowed to see us, and then there is the one that I love with all of my heart, and would do anything for her, and lately it feels like I am only good enough if she needs something.  It probably isn't true, but that is how I feel lately. 

It has been a very hard adjustment for me to become a mother.  Not having any of my own is also taking a toll on me while all of my friends are having their families.  I mean, don't get me wrong I love my family, couldn't ask for anything better (well other then for them to like me), but it still isn't the same.  But I made the choice not to have any, and I have to remember why I decided to make that decision in the first place.

I go see a specialist on Thursday so that I can schedule my hysterectomy .  Hopefully it will improve my health, because I am fighting a losing battle at this point.  Between whatever is going on down there, and my stomach..I have like no energy left.

Well I think I am going to go and snuggle with my husband....

P.S.  I got another tattoo (  my display pic..I drew it :)  )

Wow, I haven't been on here in a LONG time...sorry for leaving everyone hanging on the Cancer issue, my life is just extremely chaotic right now.

First things first, I thankfully tested negative for the next test so it is not Cancer, just the early early signs of it...but I am going to have a hysterectomy because she believes that my Cervix is falling..doesn't that sound wonderful, I keep having a dream that I am walking down the aisle, looking radiant, and my cervix falls out of me..isn't that a great visual

The wedding is sooooooooooooooo close, only 23ish more days til the big day.  Everything is ready and I am just waiting for the day, which of course has kicked my insomnia into full gear.  Oh well, at least I am getting lots of stuff done around the apartment that I haven't tackled.  My dress looks awesome :) I can't wait to wear it for that day and for everyone to marvel at my beautifulness (HA!HA!)

The other new thing I have had to get used to is the fact that I am now a full time parent..we got custody of Ken's son Aaron in February, I love having him here, but it is hard to get used to being the person that actually has to deal with him if he is misbehaving, or if I say something he does it, because he is a good kid.  Just something I never thought would happen to me, and I am very blessed to have him, and all of the other kids in my life, since I will not be having one of my own.

Work is pissing me off because I haven't been getting hours, I mean come on, I love calling Americans and trying to get me to do a survey (NOT).  But it is helping me pay for my wedding and get food on the table, so I get to try to call one of my favourite Americans, which of course, never happens.

Speaking of which, how the heck is everyone?

I think I am going to go and check into mirc and see how everyone is doing before I hit the pillow for the night.

I should be back on here chatting again soon...probably before I become a Mrs.!

P.S.  My profile pic is my newest tattoo that I got in memory of my grandma's since they will not be at the wedding, I wanted them in my pictures :)  (sappy I know)  It is over my heart (where you put your poppy)